Well… I met someone who has read my book (#TheList) and is creating a list himself -all while relentlessly pursuing a strong, tenacious, stubborn, & independent woman…. I won’t say any names… But she reminds me a lot of myself! LoL
I made a poor judgment call in the not so distant past and my heart has been on lockdown… I let someone in I shouldn’t have and my heart got carried away. I failed to stick to my own advice and I got hurt. I’m human and I too mess up sometimes. But my heart to wait for God’s best for my life remains the same.
I say that to say this, this man, the one who has read my book, he has had a fight on his hands trying to get close to me. I’m not sure I have ever been pursued in such a way. But he’s genuine in his pursuit and he truly has a desire to learn about who I am and his intentions seem to be pure.
In my desperation to push him away, I decided one afternoon to pick up my notebook that contained my “list” and find all the reasons why he was not good for me. Then I could point them out and explain we just weren’t compatible… I thought it was genius… Until it backfired… I went down my list one by one… Check… Check… Check… Who was this guy? Had he seen my list? Was it a trick? Ugh.
Perhaps it was time for me to re-think things. So I started praying, asking God to help me not be so critical towards this guy and towards myself. Chapter 7: Don’t Force Shut a Door God Opens for You… Hello! I started looking for the positives instead of focusing on the negatives. This man encourages me, motivates me, and pushes me to become the best version of myself. That’s important. He listens to me… Like REALLY listens. He communicates well and is willing to work through the tough stuff together. He’s kind, compassionate, generous, and real. He knows he’s not perfect and takes responsibility for his mistakes. He loves me for me. In happy moments and not so happy moments, he continues to stand by me. He tries to spoil me… Which I can imagine has also been quite the battle for him… But I think my rhino skin is softening up because I’m starting to like being spoiled a bit! He’s such a gentleman!
Today, I agreed to be his girlfriend. I don’t know where this relationship will go, but I feel like we are headed in the same direction… That’s a great place to start!
If you read this, please say a prayer for us! It’s time for me to start a new adventure!